Sunday, April 30, 2006


So much on my mind these past few days been such a wrecked, thanks for the company guys! Thanks dan for listening to me and my nonsense, thanks for telling me to hold my head high and if things dun work out, i still got u to depend on =p ( u said so!! i demand to be a taitai with tons of bodyguard *hmpfs*)

Took so much pictures these few days on the road, so much things that caught my eyes, from a roadside stall to goats at the road side! what a pity i didn't bring my cam along today, theres a whole bunch of police officers guarding the roads due to the demonstration thats gonna happen tml. I hope everything will be fine when i take my licence >.<" theres news that on wed theres gonna be another demo, now i seriously wonder how can i even get to the airport =(.

Had Soto earlier today, it was good! minus the obvious fried onions which Fel was trying to make me like it, but EWWWWWWW i don't its juz i duno pyschology i guess i juz hate the "smell" thats coming out of it *faints* , he says i seem like a dracula *fangs my teeth* Bought 2 Soto back and hmm one Sumsum, hmm ain't know how to decribe it in eng, will take pics later (its for dinner!) Felix bought for us 2 chicken porraige and it taste pretty good but i haven't eaten it all up (for dinner), tooooo full! Duno how he is able to eat fried rice juz now -.-" after that amount of soto lol. More over he doesn't get fat like... what the hell!!!! i feel a double chin coming! But he ended up going to the loo, loL~

Here are some snap shots, randomly taken~



My home's mini garden.



Don't know y its there but its there




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Thursday, April 27, 2006


Sometimes its tiring when one tries to help another with no other intention but their relative; closest to em, thinks we are out to harm them. Y would u want to help another, seriously, unless u really wanna help the person with pure heart. Man is selfish, this i agree, but relatives, y would your relative wanna harm you? if they are in the right mind that is. If we had any intention to begin with, we would not come over and help your children, nor would we even shelter em or teach em the basis of life. If we are that evil. Your children would not be as sensible as they are now. So watch those evil thoughts u have of us. I am totally tired of trying to help. If thats what u feel towards us, i rather have nothing to do with you.

You ppl claim to be the "successful" ones out of the 3 and my mami being the failure in life and carrer, but look at her child, she is not of any who played illegal stuff, nor a failure in class or even in society. she does not beg, as u want her to.
If you are realli successful than show to others your family.. i dare you to. Look at oma, during her last few years of her life or rather through out, do u think she is happy, no one to acc her, what abt the daughter in laws , huh!~ don't always taken em for granted, and when they pass on, u get totally upset, whatever for. Treasure em dudes, they are ur parents! FGS. Don't expect mami to be the only one to talk to em and stuff. She has done enuff, u ppl know what she has done. And u ppl the "successful bunch" have u even brought em for a trip with your family, NO, i wonder y. Now opa, with maid,nurse and driver, do you ppl even know whats going on. i totally doubt so. i wonder even if u know his health being, all u know is to take out money when he is in hospital.

I seriously wonder, if u think ur parents are such a burden , y don't you just put em in old folks home, at least they have friends, lesser on their mind etc. whatever for keep em locked up in a house with ppl that don't even talk to em. Just to save ur faces. I have rebelled more than once, said my mind more than once. If anything happen to opa this time, i will make sure i say all what i think to wake u fgts up.

I am not cursing anyone nor have the intention to. But whatever you have done will befall on u when u r due of old age.




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Tuesday, April 25, 2006


Ulcer! Pimple! these are the very reason y i hate coming back to indo, weather, food and urgh the dustiness *pointz at 3 pimples* gonna go doc for it on thursday hopefully!

Today is the second day of my driving lesson, muahaha, yeah u heard it right ME, yes the blur ever so slow ME is learning driving *grinz wide* CS was telling me that he rather not sit in a car i drive *sadden* .

Yesterday's session was very much an amusement to my mom, the teacher and myself. He asked me to start the engine (mind u i haven't drove anything before in my life that requires me to start an engine), me being the blur ever so mighty slow one, decide to stick the key into the hole, right, so... wheres the hole -_-" took me a good 5 sec to find it (nubbified #1) aight so now after i put the key in am suppose to turn it right, i did, honestly i did but i also turn it back lol... kk i din noe y i did that but it just happen =\ 3 times, i on-ed and off-ed the engine. Simply embarressing =( (nubbified #2). Right being me not staying in indo for long enuff to absorb enuff of the language made me kinda blur. he said "zen" which meant the thingy to signal left or right, and i gave him the " what the hell are u talking" look. I was kinda amused by the Kopling, which Raf told me happens to be Clutch in english. I don't know y but its cute *giggles*

Learning manual car is funnie, i only know that i need to go in the mid of gear 1 and 2 to be able to get my two feet of any pedal(duno y though) and that hmm if i start a car i should always start in gear one and when i change gear i need to release gas and go all the way on the clutch.

Another cute fact is that, i only go max of 10km/hr lol, blame it on the traffic, and i think the driver was scared of me also, everytime i move beyond 10 , he goes " release the gas abit" in bahasa obviously.

Today's session i seem to improve much more, he din say much i moved on my own, other than the right and left turn, which i still have no idea how much i m suppose to turn -.-" and often duno how to release, think too scared lol.. other than that the teacher was quite happy with me being daring coz i juz hantam =x i mean if i was abt to bang or anithing the teacher would obviously brake =x hehe. He said i was a fast learner. =D

Hope tml's session would be great. These few days been raining bad again =( Oh ya theres 2 kittens in my yard, *grinz* will take some snappies when i see em later or tonight!




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Sunday, April 23, 2006


Sunday was a tiring day, i was so busy editing the pictures that i took mainly from the safety and comfort of the car turning 360 degrees trying to get angles and view, some of em ended up having reflections of the car's screen =(.

The day started out at 7am WIB (Waktu Indonesia Barat) church was our first destination, i wanted to take picture of the cathedral but i would think it isn't exactly very proper to do that when we are in service, after that we did not have enough time to spare for me to take pictures as we were rather in a hurry to go and have breakfast aka Lunch, my stomach was growling during service, so hehe yeah.

We went to Hailai international Club centre, the Dim Sum there was good, the xiao long bao however is not up to standard, i love the Siew mai though, the prawn is way good. We ordered Char siew bao, Chee cong fan, Kailan, Urat Sapi( which is beef with tendons), Tau sa bao, Chicken feet, UburUbur(jellyfish), Snake soup(which is good for skin, it taste like chicken and a mix of those shark fin soup), i had chicken porraige(addicted to porraige), Felix had some mixed noodles. It was way filling.

Next stop was INAFest 2006,which is an art and ceramic exibition, biggest in indo i suppose. So much kebaya and traditional handicraft. Got a few beautiful bed sheets n stuffies *happy*. We headed to gramps house and chill awhile before heading to a photography exibition held at Galeri Nasional Indonesia the exibition is called "Apres L'obscurite..." by a renowed photographer Klavdij Sluban this collection is in pure black n white flim roll, which depicts the photographs as being very deep. After that mom and i stopped over at carrefour to get some groceries for the next few days.

gonna check out on driving lessons tml! hope to get my licence, gotta make specs, do dental X-tray n stuffies >.< Anyway heres a few pictures i took,enjoy!


Galeri Nasional Indonesia


Few of the Klavdij Sluban's Work on Bali, Sumatra and Jakarta


Tiles of time


Bajai.. A whole lot of em.


Speeding away, on a local transportation.


One of the few monuments around indonesia that teaches us values of life.


Modern side by side with Tradition.


Midway through shopping.


P.S misses




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Friday, April 21, 2006


*scurry* Friday was such a busy day, SMU called on Thursday to inform me that theres an interview session on Friday, thank god for my flight plan am leaving for Indo is later today and not on Friday. It was a grilling 2+ interview, a session interview consisting of a group of students (around 8 I guess but my team was 6) and 2 professors on an article that was issued to us ( I think I did ok), other than that we had an essay writing( man I think I screwed up on that).

Raf woke up early at I guess 5 in order to wake me up at 6, by the time he reached my place I was juz out of the bath, that explains y women do take their time *grinz*, we initially wanted to go breakfast but I think I kinda dragged the time too long n stuff and we took cab down coz I was uber lazy to actually catch a train and walk all the way to the business school~~ we reached at approx 8:30 am and decided to get water and from then on, he waited all the way till 10:40, poor guy *patpat*, he actually fell asleep waiting for me (made me feel kinda bad, should not ask him to come). I made a new friend from CJC and she too was applying to SMU and she also applied to NUS Law and NYU! God must be some sort of a smart-ass(No Offence Intended -NOI)<- learnt that from Raf. In the morning i was asking him that do i have a "Pls come talk to me" face or a "stay away from me!" face, he says that i have a kinder face and a friendlier one if i smile and a hostile , no enter zone when i dun. So good practice to keep ppl away from me *poutz* *glare* *Snarls*.

Like any typical Friday i had piano, which i did perform really good. I gotta practice more. This i muz swear. If i really ended up going indiana i might just have to take piano exams there =(. Indiana happens to be one of the best music school in the US *ponders* no wonder mom agreed so quickly when i said i wanted to apply for indiana, i guess she wanted me to do an elective on music *sniffles*.

Backtrack abit,on wed i met my babe, had porraige i think we were tooooooo hungry or missed it tooo much that our bill end up being $14.40~ for 2 bowls or pork and century egg porraige, 2 bowl of chicken feet and 2 cans of 100 plus. *Psst~* am addicted to 100 plus, esp lemon lime! *stomach grumbles*

Well atm Raffies on CS, he is amused apparently on how i play CS, trust me it felt like i m the most noobiest person around that follows the graphics as it moves, what i truely meant is that when my char is behind a box and peers over, i will physically move too. -_-" i somewhat feel stupid n blur. *shakez head* But to him it seems that its the amusement of the day.




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Saturday, April 15, 2006


Bunny attack! the promise of the faithful scar that fluffy adorable rabbit left me with. Bunnies are cute, yeah i agree, fluffy and mostly adorable and cuddly thingy. But when they strike, the shuffle thier paws and with their cute puffy paws they dig into ur skin to create slash-like "design" on ur arm.This is the one week after effect of the "attempt to run away" of a rabbit or maybe in other words "Let me go, you monster *slash *slash*" Whatever the human mind decides to cypher from its behaviour, this is the outcome, you would definately not want to see how it looks like, freshly slashed.

*do not go near a rabbit when it fears u.



Ah sometime last week got my new mousepad,mouse and some dvd-r ,well being a fan of pink! any shade rather. i decided to settle on this Baracuda *fat baby series* (trust me am serious abt the name). Awfully cute imo, i juzt like the colour of it!hehe oh yeah~ its a girl thing



And last and not least, today morning i got greeted by a glass of water color, in green! am not lying~ who would ever thought that this coloured juice is actually guava, its juz so ew. I was seriously disgusted. Look at this!!!!!!!! Reminds me of the swamp!





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Friday, April 14, 2006


Rainfall huge rain, all you could hear everyday is *kaboom* *zoom* *bang* ... i bet with you these few days lots of road accidents! The sky juz gave out some lightning again, that bolt of lightning juz scared the hell outta me.


Oh yeahn 5 days in a row been pouring!

Went to church with mommy for 2 days in a row, yesterday was some thursday thingy and today good friday, goodness some what 2 hours mass. and the church was extremely crowded it was like some concert thingy, totally full that we couldn't realli move much. On our way back we bought some packet lunch, coz the sky wasn't exactly showing favourable signs for us to actually stay in the place to eat. Being me on my Diet Craze again. Due to some what a gain weight since i was attached -.-" i decided to get some cabbage, toufu skin and hmm stingray and lesser rice. I wonder y sometimes packaged food look so disgusting like the one i had.



K enuff abt that before i feel sick abt eating. Yesterday night i created Gf agro again and dragged Raf to watch Take the Lead it was an awesome show! made me feel like learning ballroom dancing from that Pierre Dulain guy, who happens to be an real teacher, like they said " inspired by a true story". Its one of the best show i have watched. Imo that is, maybe coz i like inspired movies and hmm dance movies in particular, i even got their soundtrack its good! Planning to get the dvd when its out, for my personal collection that is. I would rate it 4.5/5



Here are some random pictures i took :


I want this!!!!! before i leave sg *hints*


Fluffy the Bunny! haha Valence's sis's bunny, he scratch me real bad , will post that in the next entry!


Raf fiddling with my cam, *hmm* juz handle it with care ahuh!


The Dog Love me <3... That i lied, she is still afraid of me!




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Tuesday, April 11, 2006


Been some what long weeks, the weekend i was spending at my god bro's house, burning drama serials that he has. Here is one of the drama series that i would highly recommend, its extremely touching! Thanks to xavier that intro'ed me to the show.



The synopsis of Ichi Rittoru no Namida AKA One Litre of Tears / A Diary with Tears.

This beautifully moving drama is based on the real-life struggles of a 15-year-old girl named Aya who suffered from an incurable disease(spinocerebellar degeneration - a terrible disease where the brain gradually deteriorates to the point where the victim cannot walk, speak, write, or eat. A cruel disease, as it does not affect the mind in the least), but lived life to the fullest until her death at 25. The script is based on the diary Aya kept writing until she could no longer hold a pen. The book that later followed entitled "One Litre of Tears" has sold over 1.1 million copies in Japan alone.

Aya's only wish was "to live." By carefully depicting Aya's earnest desire to live, and the love of her family, friends, and lover, the drama, "One Litre of Tears" wishes to deliver her simple but strong message: "Just being alive is such a lovely and wonderful thing." ---Fuji TV

I don't exactly cry at drama series before, but this one is based on a real life story and mind you its very much touching. Imo its one of the best japanese show i have ever watched. The actress in particular is damn cute. *grinz*

Watched Eight Below on sunday it was good, realli nice, but not as nice as i anticipated, however the dogs are the cutest thing, i mean, how do you train dogs up to that level of intellect.

That reminds me of Raf's doggy lol.



Another mtv that you should all catch " zhi yin wei ni" by zhang dong liang, its damn adorable he potrays a tarot reader lol.




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Thursday, April 06, 2006


Gonna go my god bro house later after piano and bunk in for a couple of days till sunday, the reason being i was suppose to go KL but i din't and as many would know if once i told my mama i m going, i better be going or the next time round she wouldn't allow me to go. So there u go the only other choice is to bunk in. Watched tristan and isolde yesterday, the movie is so romeo and juliet except torn by wars, i guess must be shakesphere's inspiration for the timeless romeo and juliet. The cinema was nearly empty i think should be ard barely 20 ppl in it. But well it was all good, interesting to some extend, was one of the show i have alot of comments for =p one of which i said " stupid boy " lol.

Theres a couple of movies i wanna watch next week! Eight Below and Take the Lead another dancing show! Love these kinda show. Next week am gonna be like uber broke! This sat itself was planning to meet raf in the morning for lunch or something go east coast to chill awhile than off to ikea to check out stuffies that i need to buy to keep my room in order. *ponders* I need a new keyboard + mouse for my desktop =p and i need to get more r dvd to burn my stuffies.

Raf sent me a cute pic



taken from sonuku's avatar, its so adorable yeah =p a cute little kitty, i wanna create that , been long since i did CG or anything close to that the lastest i have done is juz to hmm edit some prom pictures, i still have not edited those bangkok pictures i went last year =( muz get to it soon! its nearly a year!

heh aight better sign off now. Zikky is complaining that i m afking =x




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Saturday, April 01, 2006


Cleared most of my room, except my bookshelf and my wardrobe and my study table. Time to change the water of my marimo =D, its been neglected for sometime, time to take charge of my life again! I was reading this article on "10 ways to rev your metabolism"Heres the suggestions!

1. Lift Weights
2. Get moving with your cardiovascular exercise
3. Try interval Training
4. Don't overdo calorie-cutting
5. Eat Breakfast
6. Space your meals wisely
7. Catch some z's
8. Drink water
9. Skip Alcohol
10.Drink Milk

Think by going through this would help me cut dwn on my body fat and increase my metabolism! Oh ya I finally got the album of Andrea bocilli and Josh gorban, so I replaced my blog's song to Josh Gorban's - My Confession.

Well the past few days, ain't seem so good, infact it has pushed both me and Raf to the brink pretty much, but we decided we shouldn't be angry over such small stuff yeah, no point having so much anger over others when we are the one paying to play it. He wanted to move but I was tad bit reluctant, maybe coz I have friends here as in friends I can talk to, like Andrew, Ray, Jon, Akiyan and the rest, and made myself a new friend Xavier, such cool name rite, wonder y my mom din name me a more unique name instead of Pamela. I got my new stuff with the help of my friend, which am happy with *grinz wide*. Sometimes real life friends are not all good friends, they do change. Some real life friends are just acquaintance.

So to end this post heres the lyrics of My confession.

I have been blind, unwilling to see
The true love you're giving.
I have ignored every blessing.
I'm on my knees confessing

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

I have been wrong about you.
Thought I was strong without you.
For so long nothing could move me.
For so long nothing could change me.
Now I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am captured by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

[bridge:]
You are the air that I breath.
You're the ground beneath my feet.
When did I stop believing?

Cause I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.
Hear my confession




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